One last time

Its time to say goodbye. Time to hang up those dancing shoes for good. I wore them in I guess. Those shoes have walked miles and its time to give them a break. You would say to me, ''Michelle, why would you do that?". I'll tell you in 2 simple words," Its time". My reign has ended.

The past few days has seen me walk an all too familiar path and this time around, it turned out to be the best walk I've ever taken. The year is nearly over, 7 days away from saying goodbye to 2009. I wish to end it this way. There was no great sign from God or lightning flashes or thunder strikes. It was pure thought. My mind telling my body to give it all up. I'm not phased by this. I lived it up. Young and super fast :) perhaps this was meant to be but you never know what lies ahead until it comes back to bite you in the ass. I hope not to feel the bullet recochet my way. If I never get to have what I always wanted out of life, it does not matter anymore as I know there was a higher purpose behind it all.

I met him and he told me things I could never have learnt from anyone else. That moment we shared on the beach and in each others arms opened my eyes up to the real world and the real struggle that normal, everyday people face. Some more then others but obstacles nonetheless. I learnt and I loved and I forgave. I cried and I laughed and I held on to beauty with dear life. I told you my deepest darkest secret and yet you never judged me. I don't know why you put up with me but like you said, you did :) and for that I am eternally grateful.

As we return to our own homes and lives, I shall never forget that walk I took. The build-up to the most troubled year I've ever had. Tinged with a bit of happiness and endless goodbyes to people I wish would never leave. As you leave for distant shores, I hope our paths cross again someday, but under painless circumstances. You helped lighten my load.

The end is almost here. I must say goodbye now. I must reclaim that which was lost as an innocent girl. For that I hang up my shoes for good. The walk was long and treacherous but a surprising one at every turn.

New people, old ties....

XOX....till we meet again.