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29 days and counting...where the hell did it disappear to?

So I celebrated my 29th birthday on the 13th of this month, last wednesday. Another day closer to having one foot in the grave :) I feel as if the boat is already in the harbor and all I'm doing is waiting for the right tide and winds to set me off. Its been an amazing 29 years, one hell of a run. I have seen and done things a lot of people couldn't even dream of seeing/doing. I have traveled the world, seen the beauty the world has to offer, and the dark, ugly side that still fascinates me to this day. Its so unlike me to get all sentimental over a stupid birthday, but this one is different. It is my last at home. My last in Paradise. The final few good moments with the people who have mattered to me throughout my life. The one person I wish I could have shared this last moment with was my dad, but I know he was, and still is, watching over me. I'm sitting in the Bat Cave (my room), got my earphones on with Rain blaring in my ears and wondering whether it is true when they say life is too short for regrets. Is it? I can't say I have regretted anything (maybe not saying I Love You enough to daddy), other then that, this journey has always been a rather strange one for me. Lost many, gained a few, tried and failed so much, yet I remain resilient. I thank God for each and every day I spend on earth and for the many blessings he has bestowed on me. As I slowly embark on a new direction in life, it is becoming clear as to why things have happened the way they have. All things happen for a reason, right? And I have a new purpose in life, a new road to follow. I look forward to the new challenges the next few days, weeks, months and years will bring. It is, without a doubt, the greatest thing in life to feel alive.....29 years later and I'm finally alive!